I Don't Know What I'm Doing - What a Relief

Entrepreneurship is a beast. If I had truly known what I was stepping into before jumping in, I probably would have shied away. There are no blueprints, no direct paths, no clear instructions. 

I started completely ignorant and naive, and honestly, I see that as a blessing. 

I had no idea what I was doing. Truthfully, I still don't. I had an idea, and I followed it. Entrepreneurship feels like playing a board game for the first time while everyone else already knows the rules. There are countless players, obstacles, and hidden clues. They only reveal themselves as you move forward. No one explains the rules, you discover them by stumbling upon them. 

I had an idea, I acted on it, and I keep repeating that process. 

Each time I complete one task, a new one appears along with a new experience and lesson. This is not a journey for the faint of heart. The older version of me could not have handled this. I have had to learn how to block out both internal and external noise. I'm learning to follow my gut. I'm learning to trust the Inner Knowing - the one that says no matter what, everything will be okay. 

And honestly, that sounds a lot like life itself. 

People try to tell you "how to do life", but everyone is on a different path. What I am learning through entrepreneurship is the same lesson life keeps teaching: block out the noise, follow my heart, and keep going. 

The career path that I have chosen, what I believe is my calling, is simply a path less traveled. It's more unknown, more fearful, and more risky. BUT that is exactly what makes it worthwhile. It is more satisfying, it is more beautiful, more alive. I'm growing in ways I never would have inside a cubicle or punching a clock somewhere. 

I've broken free, and I have never experienced this much joy from work before. 

Here is the truth: after four months, nothing I have done has turned into sales, clients, or money. I work all day, every day. I take care of myself and rest when I need to: breathe, meditate, walk, journal, tap, surrender and pray. If I don't take care of myself, I can't take care of those around me. 

And the best part? It doesn't feel like work at all. 

I spent this past Saturday night writing for three hours, all because I wanted to. I was "working" but it didn't feel like work. I had fun. 

I'm exactly where I need to be. Something will work on, in time, in accordance with Divine Timing.